Sadness and confusion

[naturallypixie]

 I have been teaching an intro biology class at a local community college since January.  There was an opening for a full-time position there and the dean encouraged me to apply for it.  In fact, she encouraged me to apply for it the day that she hired me for the adjunct position.  I went through the first interview along with 17 other people.  I had to give a teaching demonstration and answer a ton of questions.  Two other people and I were brought in for a second interview with the president and vice president of the school, which turned out to be with just the vice president.  This was a week ago today.  Last night I found out that I did not get the position.  Now I am very sad and confused about what I want to do next.

My current job will be gone by August, so I need to do something else, but I really cannot decide what I want.  I really do not want another lab job, but that is what I am most qualified for.  I wouldn't mind being an executive assistant again, but it has been years since I did that.  Maybe I should go back to doing temp work and start acting again.  But then what do I do about health care?  And starting up acting takes money for headshots and stuff.

I would like some simple.

Comments

[reedrover]

::sigh:: That's tough. Is there a chance that the Dean might have something else for you, or a better placement? Is it worth trying for a teaching job somewhere else?

Health care is always such a sticking point. Otherwise I would recommend you strike out on your own as a fairy-for-hire (kids parties), an herbalist, an interior design/decorator, and actor.

[youvebeenpixied.livejournal.com]

Sounds good to me.

[seerofkell.livejournal.com]

When I can't decide between many things that I really want to do, Tim tells me to make a list of pros and cons. It seems to help me to see things on paper. *shrug*

Maybe there are other teaching positions available elsewhere? I always hear about teacher shortages, so you could maybe fill one of those spots?

I also really like the opening your own business idea. What happened to the tea business?

[youvebeenpixied.livejournal.com]

Pros and cons I have already done and it always comes down to money versus happiness.

The teacher shortages are in high school and middle school. I think that I might be a bag lady before I teach there.

As for the tea, I have not found a restaurant that will let me mix in their kitchen :(

[em-yrt.livejournal.com]

You're not qualified to teach there anyhow... :)

[youvebeenpixied.livejournal.com]

Sure I am! All I have to do is sign up for the same program you did :)

[cutieperson]

aw, that's rough. *hugs*
is there a chance of getting health insurance through Bart and not needing to worry as much about that?

[youvebeenpixied.livejournal.com]

Unfortunately not. Bart gets his health insurance through the VA and thankfully, he is not disabled enough to merit insurance for his spouse.

Thanks for the hugs.

[gsh]

I had thought something like that might have happened. It sucks. You have my sympathy. And you have my respect.

[youvebeenpixied.livejournal.com]

When I posted that I was sad, I hadn't heard yet, but I was just feeling it. I was still hopeful, but I had a feeling that I wasn't going to get it. I tried.

[gsh]

Well, for lack of a better term, you may have been sensitive enough to detect a great disturbance in the force.

[youvebeenpixied.livejournal.com]

I think this qualifies as a very small disturbance in the force ;)

[gsh]

And here I thought *you* were a small disturbance in the force. :)