Sadness and confusion

 I have been teaching an intro biology class at a local community college since January.  There was an opening for a full-time position there and the dean encouraged me to apply for it.  In fact, she encouraged me to apply for it the day that she hired me for the adjunct position.  I went through the first interview along with 17 other people.  I had to give a teaching demonstration and answer a ton of questions.  Two other people and I were brought in for a second interview with the president and vice president of the school, which turned out to be with just the vice president.  This was a week ago today.  Last night I found out that I did not get the position.  Now I am very sad and confused about what I want to do next.

My current job will be gone by August, so I need to do something else, but I really cannot decide what I want.  I really do not want another lab job, but that is what I am most qualified for.  I wouldn't mind being an executive assistant again, but it has been years since I did that.  Maybe I should go back to doing temp work and start acting again.  But then what do I do about health care?  And starting up acting takes money for headshots and stuff.

I would like some simple.